When you choose to let go, the world stops
And you know that,
So that’s why you jumped
Because you needed us,
But we didn’t understand.
Now we know, but you’re gone
And your pain has scattered.
Your monster has flung shards into everyone
Who has ever loved you
Now we know, but you no longer need us
And all we want is to help you
But you won’t need help again.
It is us who needs helping.
It is us who needs love and to love each other again.
We stop our TV shows and call in sick from work.
We are sick, with thoughts of you
With a love that has no place to go
We tell others who knew you
And the shards fling
Into their hearts,
Cut them up like paper snowflakes.
Writhing little pieces of worm
Wondering where to dig, how to live,
Knowing that you no longer wanted to.
Your pain left you and entered us
And maybe you didn’t know that
Or maybe you didn’t have a choice.
Maybe you were fighting for so long…
…that you weren’t strong enough to live anymore.
No test could find the Darkness
That took you away from us.
No x-ray could show the shards that pierced our souls
When it was released from yours.
Maybe you didn’t know
That your pain would be a ghost
That would live inside of us all
Forever
Or maybe you’re very sorry
Because you knew that it would.
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I carry the memories
I carry the pain
I keep this ghost you left for me
I will play my part
But I pray every day
That I don't miss another sign
The sign that tells me of your despair.
I pray that I have the words to tell you that I'm not sure if I can bear this burden yet again
The words to tell you that you are loved more than you see.
I pray that I can save you
You think that you are alone
But I have been here before
Whether I make you believe or not
My soul will be etched by those shards of glass
And my smile will be a veil for my pain